Hidehi

Me and friend E. were having some coffee and she asked me about this blog.
Why I was not blogging anymore. I asked myself and then I thought. Why the hell not start again?
I mean everybody needs from time to time some rumble into nothingness (don't you??? Yes you do..). So me is back. On track.
Rule number one of this blog is trying not to sob too much. Cause I know that's not really nice for people to read. All my little shitness about people who irritate me ladididada. But that will be some kind of difficult cause I am a very complaining person. So..
What did I do lately?
Well for starters I have collected a number of notebooks to write in. The reason why so many was that one would be for the amazing good movie ideas, another for the dialogues (which just pop in my head and have to write down as fast as I can), the other for music I hear (which can be in the soundtrack of forthcoming film from notebook number one),etc. etc. A nice system..Yeah actually creating a system. But. As you can guess I already messed up the system in two days. Whenever I have a brilliant idea, or hear a great quote or song I just grab a notebook, which is most near and write. So far, so not good.
Apart from that I have to catch up with friends who think I'm dead or something cause I had this major stay-alone-at-home-winter-thingie-with-the-curtains-closed, BUT with one tiny difference: I am not living alone anymore. I am sharing my beautifully little house not only with my lovely (and one and only man in the world) cat G. but also with the Frodo. Yes, we are still together (for whom it may concerns). He has a job in Amsterdam now and he stays here for six months. Sometimes the house is becoming really small. like a shoebox. And it is only three weeks he is living here now. Yeah I KNOW I just have to get used to this fact step by step. That's why the notebooks because we share my computer now.
And me not so easy person to live with. Difficult girlie sometimes. Girlie needs time alone. But is making efforts and adjusts.
I am so not going to recap last year. cause it wasn't a good year, but it wasn't a bad one either. I thought a lot.
Some scary shit happened, I had like this 'phase' i didn't recognize people whom I worked with or went to school with. One evening at a documentary festival it hit the roof. There were five people there I didn't recognize. The strange thing is I do I 'know' them, I have this feeling with them like they were old friend or stuff but could not place them. That was kinda scary. Luckily that night Frodo was there too and could introduce him by saying really loud: "This is Frodo" and then politely waited for them to say their names..Thank god some people even mentioned to Frodo were they knew me from and then everything would come back quite easily. Anyway I had a good chat with Mr Shrink about this and he gave some good advice. Now it's just words and names I can't come up with but that's not so strange. Anyways...

Wish-list 2006:
Drivers license
Apple laptop/powerbook
Ipod
figure out what to do with my life
hope “The Squid and the Whale” will come out soon here so i can go and see it
and make a movie like that hahaha
Write a screenplay ( already working on two)
and get one of them made, or some producer interested in them.

So far so me.
How are you doing?